always feelin' bitter , always thinkin' of the past
why are the mistakes the only thing that last?
and the laughs fade away fast
i don't wanna stay in this place
unable to breath , drownin' in other souls but mine
i can't see anyone's face
while they're usin' me to get higher, to reach safe
they can't hear me though i screamed till i lost my voice
all the time i find myself standin' alone
but say : it's just a dream, wake up & ur worries can be thrown
but i awake to find me in another dream another nightmare
i don't know from where i've come, i'm lost in the unknown
everyone hurting my soul & they don't even know
how much anger is about to blow
torturin' strainin' my spirit
tryin' to make life in me no more flow
all the memories are comin' at once, all the things that i couldn't erase
oh my god ican't stand this pain
pain is a toxin that tortures in grace
but this pain overdose feels like a cut in the vein
here in the darkness among my regrets
i know myself, i know the pain coming next
maybe there's sth better outside my world
but i'm too tired to change & i don't know what to expect
i tried happiness, it did not last
i chose love i could not find
i felt pain, it stuck to me
and now sufferin' means nothin' without me
nothin' is left but darkness
and now nothin' is what i am
sometimes i think i'm goin' insane
hopin' one day my walls break down
maybe i'd stop feelin'like i'm always dying
like my soul far away is fading
i can't keep goin' down
i have to stop my fears i need to breath
i won't keep drowning
i want to stop feelin' like every breath is my last
i want the bleedin' to stop
i wish the mask would just drop
i want to have my first real smile
i want to break through to scream out loud
i wand my scars to reveal
so they would start to heal
i want to stop pretendin' strong & tuff, when i'm just not
i'm weak, i'm sad
i'm afraid, i'm mad
i don't care what everybody thinks but keep on pretendin' i just can't
i want to change but can't on my own
i need help to start believin' that i'm not just a stone
so please help me get there
collect my pieces, free my soul
show me that there's someone that care
promise me that my heart u won't tear
save me from me
show mw what worm is
find my spirit
find me please
find me
موضوع: poem without title 
الأربعاء يونيو 04, 2008 6:56 am
